I can't sleep. I miss him. I know I shouldn't but I do. So much is happening and sometimes I want to pick up the phone and just tell him everything. I start my new job tomorrow, and I'm nervous. I still havnt spoken to daniel and its been two days. Jess's 40 day mass was today and I'm so upset for Angela. I don't want to celebrate my bday and I think the girls will probs shoot me when I tell them. Just Everything.
I wish I could still just talk to him freely. He was the best listener. And a true Gemini in his ability to give fantastic bloody advice. I wish he missed me. I know he doesn't because he would have tried. He would have at least replied to my message, but he didn't. He didn't even put up a fight. He let me walk straight out. No hesitation, or effort to stop me. Yeah I know, so why do I miss him. Why would I go back and do it all again in a heart beat. I don't know. I can't even answer that for myself. Insanity; its doing the same thing over and over again. And each time expecting a different result
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