I know what I want. I think?

Its 1am. Saturday night (well technically now Sunday morning) Sydney time. I was at Naha's Engagement tonight. Its so weird to see my friends getting engaged. Jenny's wedding is in November, Naha's wont be too far off that. Krystle & Jeff's 3 years is August and Rima will be a Saad any day now. The upside is this group are definitely are my more mature friends.

Tiz, Tammy, Daniel, they aren't getting engaged anytime soon.  I love my mental single friends. But nights like tonight do make me think, which group would i rather be in? A stable relationship would be kinda nice. Naha & Joe looked so amazing tonight. It was beautiful. I wonder if one day i want that? Ive always said marriage isn't a priority for me, but when i say priority it means not right now, but eventually. Right? I don't know. Is that what i want. But I want to travel, i want to live. I want to explore and be free. And i don't want to be tied down. That's what i know. So i suppose its not what i want. Well right now anyways. But why do sometimes i burst into little fits of 'gosh it would be nice to have a decent boyfriend'.

Don't get me wrong, the guys i date are nice. Super nice. Just...well, how do i say this kindly - boring.
I have yet to come across one male species that i can say i would gladly walk the great wall of china with, or ski the Russian Alps side by side, or go on safari in Africa with. Sure these guys are 'nice'. If you want a picket fence and 4 children with a veggie patch out back. But right now I'm not looking for nice.
I'm looking for soul mate. Someone on my wave length. And its just not the same with one of the boys, even thou they understand me, and my passion (& would probably be more fun) than any male interest i have ever come across.

Tonight was cute. Naha and Joe are Cute. Krystle and Jeff are Cute. Jenny and James, super cute. And even though tonight i was looking around at all the happy couples, thinking, gosh i wish i had that. I realise now, its not what i want at all. And yes, sometimes i seem to re-laps into 'relationship jelously' but generally its only for that one split second, or that one hour, or that one night. And i pull myself back out. Because i know what i want. And right now its not a picket fence and 4 children and a veggie patch out back.

Congrats Nounou & Joe. Loving you both xxx